One more year goes by …

Today I turn a year older. I mean now I have become really ‘OLD’. Not just kids but teenagers and even some uncles too call me aunty :-(. So much old that, the hoopla about b’day celebration, cake cutting, gifts, new dresses and all is not exciting me much. That’s the sign of turning old isn’t it? :D. A friend asked me what’s your birthday wish, ‘to act like my age’ was my reply. Really it’s a bigger deal for someone like me. It means no more acting cranky, no more hopping around like a baby, no more ‘anger attacks’, no more kung-fu hassles with sis, no more throwing tantrums during marriage related discussions, no more acting like bad gal with mom, no more mimicking people (I do that a lot), no more late morning snores on weekends, no more acting lazy, lot more concentrating on work and less wondering of mind, lot more acting sober and lot less running away from people, no more excuses of ‘I am still young no!’ blah blah.... Ooooh oooh… that’s lot of changes needed to be done with increasing age, isn’t it? ( On a second thought I feel I should let go of that wish and be as I am :-D, what do ya people say? )

Today was good with roomies keeping the hostel tradition of cutting cake at stroke of midnight and painting my face with choco cream, friends n family calling up to wish me. Having mom and sis around makes this day more special. I remember last year was all whiny about turning old. Probably because I was all alone in the foreign land far far away… only cake I cut was a blue berry muffin (which happens to be my favorite, but come on… muffin for a birthday cake !) And it was my first step to the other (wrong) side of twenties.

In a way, it has been hell of year, bizarre would be a better word or what my mom describes as ‘Gaddhe Panchvishi’ (Literally translated as ‘Donkey age of 25’ loosely meaning ‘When 25 you are/act like a donkey’) :-D. Jokes apart, I think mom is not totally wrong. Life was never more exciting with unexpected things happening all the time that I wouldn’t even dream of doing. Once a self-proclaimed pundit had told me that my life is gonna be a normal, predictable one. If this is the definition of normal life, then I wonder how not-normal life would be !!!

I look forward to this year with lot of hopes and dreams. (I hope I will start being a good gal this year :-D) … !!!

A milestone (!!!!???)

Today I turn 25 !!!
Whoa!!! that's too much of age ... isn't it?
When I was kid, I had decided to be a billioneer before I become 30 .. I swear. When I would see Steffi Graff or Martina Hingis and what they had achieved at so young age. I also wanted to be be like one of them. I wanted to do something different...something worthwhile...some path breaking innovation to my credit... I never wanted to be just another person in the croud.
Hmmm...
These dreams may seem childish now...

Well lets talk of reality...
Here I am... just another s/w engineer breaking my head over unnecessary things... Haven't manged to do a single thing which will make me feel proud about myself (not even a bf ... :D :D)
I don't feel like working in office any more. My thoughts are wondering all over... anything other that the "required" topics.
I feel like I have lost the fire ... to do anything ... or its just a negative thoughts creeping in from somewhere.......
I gotta do something about this...I can't let go of my dreams so easily.

Cheer up baby .... :-) :-) !!!

Happy Birthday to Myself !!!
I am missing my country and my people very much.