Thats me ... :)

This is just like me ..
(Copied song ... off course .. :D)

I hate the world today
You're so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
Must have been relieved to see
The softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
All rolled into one

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

So take me as I am
This may mean
You'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that
When I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won't mean a thing

Just when you think, you got me figured out
The season's already changing
I think it's cool, you do what you do
And don't try to save me

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way

I am a dreamer...

I sit by my window and look at the wide blue sky... I dream of flying
I dream of spreading my wings and rise above this world.
I dream of being on the top of the world.
I dream of changing all the tears to smiles ...
I dream of changing all the hatred to love ...
I dream of removing all the worries from the world...
... I dream of being with you

They say I am crazy... I don't care for people around me. I don't follow the "Rules" ...
I run behind things which I am not supposed to... I do things which will give me nothing but pain.

I am difficult ...

I fall down.. I get hurt... I cry...I get frustrated... I get cheated

... and I fight back

I haven't stopped living. Nothing has been able to fade my smile... Nothing has been able to take away my trust from life.

I love the way I am...

I am a fighter
I am a believer
I am dreamer
.... I dream of a perfect world.

Lifes like that ...

There are many moments in life which come to you unexpectedly...
You are not ready to handle them or you are just to stupid to undesrtand their importance and let them pass... And when they are gone you are left with nothing but brooding about them... wondering if you could have prevented what happened. I don't know if its right or not. Somewhere I read ...

"The saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have."

Life rarely gives a second chance. You have to accept what has happened and move on.
Lifes like that ....

Current mood: Not so happy

The Happy Gene

I have always got complements for my smiling... or laughing face. They say I have the "Happy Gene"...
Ohh really ?

I guess so ... :>
I thouhgt why not make a list of things which make that keep "happy Gene" in me always going ... somebody might be graced with the knowledge you see ... :-D.

Basic funda of being happy ....

Don't worry be happy !!!

You don't need to go around telling everybody how much sad you are... nobody cares.
"Dard bhoolane se kum hota hai aur Khushi batane se badhati hai".
When you decide to enjoy each and every moment that comes you way ... everything just falls at right places ... :-). If you start expecting from life and you don't get... it starts all the problems. It doesn't mean that you should go with the flow... but always keep your head up and Enjoy madi !!!

Whatever happens happens for good ...
Positive attitude is very much important. Very much depends on how you see your glass of life "half full or half empty"

Believe in yourself ...Let the world go to Hell !!!

Make loot of good friends....
The world is full of nice people ... you have to go out and find them out. They will make you forget all your problems.

Last but not the least

Laugh out loud ...
Laugh with all your heart out... It scares away all the saddening elements around you

Hussshhhhh
....Sooo much philospphy isn't it?
I think I can become a preecher one day :)) :)) :))
What do ya say ?

"Log kahate hai hume adat hai hasane ki
Log kahate hai hume adaat hai hasane ki
Wo kya jaane ...
yehi to adaa hai gum chupaane ki"

(Wah ... Wah !!!)

Break the rules ...

I recently finished reading "The Zahir" by Paulo Coelho (author of the Alchemist). Amazing book I must say. I loved the part where he talks about Love .... his concepts of love and life.
I liked this concept very much. I am just putting it down in my own words.

Why are railway tracks apart x meters .... ??

Simple question isn't it ? But it has long history that leads back to roman times. The distance between railway tracks is equal to the distance between wheels of horse carriage. That distance is due to size roman roads which was defined by length when two horses put together. Nobody questioned this length and blindly followed it till date.

Ok.. so what ?

Isn't our life like that ? We always try to follow some or the other rules all our life without knowing their actual meaning. We are given some script given by our parent, teachers, friends and society ... we follow it religiously. You should go to school when you are young , go to university after that, get married when you are of this age, do this and do that ... all sorts of stuff. but we never think what we actually want to do. Always try to run in a straight line. May be on parallel tracks with what we actually want. And most of us never realize this all their life. We put measures for each and everything... "One is successful only if he/she earns blah amount of money, earns these many degrees" and all sorts of things. Why do we need to measure our success against things that don't matter to us at all?

Life is not just about sacrificing for our loved ones. Who would like their beloved people to get pains for them?
Will you?
NO
Then why do you think you can make others happy by giving pains to yourself.

.... Very true isn't it ?

Forgetting your past.

Best way to forget your past is to keep it repeating again and again to others. Unless your story becomes story of other people and you gain enough courage to let go of it. I found it really interesting. How many of us have that courage? The courage to tell others about your dark side and not to run away from yourself... I think very few of us really have the courage. Most of us just try to hide it and get haunted by those memories for all their life.

No confusion ...

It seems everybody is having understanding that I have written all the poems posted here ...

Huuuuh ... I wish I could .... :D

All of these poems are copied from somewhere or other .... Please don't confuse me for a poet ... :)

"Seeing" a guy

There are somethings in life which you cannot avoid ...

Being a Indian girl and so-called "eligible" to get married, and not having found a life partner on your own, yau have to pass a ceremoney called "seeing" a guy (word-to-word translation of "ladka dekhana"... :-D). There you are supposed to dress-up, speak good things about you, answer all the questions. I heard even they ask you to walk in front of them (just make sure you don't have any defect in your feet)... Great !!!

How can you judge someone in just one look ??

I have funny anology for that ...

Its like a product being shown to a potential customer.
As a manufacturer you take all the care to make you product "presentable". Most customer go for the look of the product...reliability matters least.

When you go shopping you check out the look and feel of the product, color etc, you cannot predict about its reliability and functionality. Try to get reviews from different sources, evaluate with other compititive products, see the manufacturing companies history. And then decide on the product. After that the reliability and usability depends on all your luck and also how you handle it.

Only difference is we cannot replace(or just throw) the product easily... and all we left with is to cribb all our life .. :-)

... Hahh...

Our Indian arranged marriage process goes more or less like that. First you see "kundali" of the guy or gal, see the photograph, enquire about their family, evaluate with other prospects and then decide. Its all stupid. We all do agree with that and still go for it for whatever reasons ...